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LOVE should be the most wonderful feeling. But then I dont understand what happened to that love.
We've been friends since 2002. Became lovers in 2005. Its been 5 long years of relationship and yet a lot of things are still not understood by one another. Yes you said its not your mission to understand me and all you want to do is love me. But dont you think that even love cant save us from having arguments and fights? Those fights require us to understand one another. Coz thinking about it, even if we dont love a person, we can still understand him. When we watch the news, movie, cartoons, etc. we were able to sympathize to the character without loving him but by just understanding him. Relationship is not only about love. Though we say love encompasses all.
Communication should be part of a relationship. Yes I always ask the WHY of most things. Coz for me, everything has a reason. It may not be a reason that is generally accepted by everybody, nor a reason that is scientifically proven, not even a reason written in the Bible, it can be some illogical, nonsense reason that is coming from your heart.
If you're tired of communicating with me, I dont know how to continue with a relationship. Even the deaf, mute and blind people who are in the relationship communicates.
If you dont want me to ask the WHY of things, I feel like I'm some dumb person who always accepts things as it is even without understanding its essence. Even in the simplicity of things that we do, we can always see that the question WHY i asked.
-Why dont you want to eat in that restaurant? Does the menu sucks?
-Why did you do such a thing?
-Why did you buy apples? Are those your favorite?
-Why didn't you buy yogurt last Sunday? Did you fail to go to the Supermarket?
I remember I always ask you,
-Why do you love me? I dont expect you to answer me something logical. Coz I myself dont have a logical answer. I just wanted to hear from you some sweet nothings, things that are almost seem impossible to be understood when we love a person. I'm just making lambing in short.
-How much do you love me? love cant be measured. But since figure of speech is present, parang puede na siang idefine somehow. Something like, My love for you is higher than the Mt. Everest. It's a kid's stuff. If you saw this book "How much do you love me" in the kids section, you'll see there a baby and a mother talking. Reasons can be beyond something mind can conceive and only heart can understand.
-Why didnt you text me? Why did you go home late? Why did you go there?
I ask all of these because we have already agreed about this and you're not able to fulfill it, so I ask why. There could be a valid reason aside from you forgetting it.
-Why cant we sleep together? Yes, you have already told me about this. You already told me the WHY of this. and that was couple of months ago, or even years ago. What if that has changed already? What if you're ready? I dont want to assume things at pangunahan ka sa mga reasons mo. So i ask. But then I dont know why you cant tell me right away. Why do you have to reply to my questions huggggg instead of telling me the answer right away?
We have to understand each other. Or else we're going to nowhere. We cant always say love will overcome it. Love will teach us to just accept things. Yes it will at some point. But it will not in the long run. (That's for me and I dont know about you). There will come a time that you will get tired of accepting things without understanding it. Just like now. As much as you tell me you just want to accept everything that you dont understand about me, you still get irritated by things you dont understand, right? We will not achive peace and harmony in this relationship if we live this way.
Yung pag aaya ko sa pag mamassage nakikita ko napipilitan ka. nakikita ko pagod ka na sa kakalakad natin. Nde mo lang masabi sa kin we can do it next time. But then timing is important for me. Its today that I needed a massage. Not tomorrow. Not next week. Kac that day, i feel so tired.
Sabi mo kanina siguro kulang ka sa lambing. siguro. ewan ko. As usual sabi ko na naman sa sarili ko, mas mahalin ko ang sarili ko kesa sa sayo. Simple lang naman lahat ng gusto ko. Ewan ko kung bakit parang ang complicated ng relationship natin. Sabi mo ayaw mo ko madisappoint. Why would I be disappointed if there's a valid reason for things?
I'm tired. I'm exhausted. My energy has been totally used up. I cant live this way everyday.
I'm not complicating things. I'm asking question as plainly as it is.
Pagod na ko......alam ko pagod ka na rin......
We've been friends since 2002. Became lovers in 2005. Its been 5 long years of relationship and yet a lot of things are still not understood by one another. Yes you said its not your mission to understand me and all you want to do is love me. But dont you think that even love cant save us from having arguments and fights? Those fights require us to understand one another. Coz thinking about it, even if we dont love a person, we can still understand him. When we watch the news, movie, cartoons, etc. we were able to sympathize to the character without loving him but by just understanding him. Relationship is not only about love. Though we say love encompasses all.
Communication should be part of a relationship. Yes I always ask the WHY of most things. Coz for me, everything has a reason. It may not be a reason that is generally accepted by everybody, nor a reason that is scientifically proven, not even a reason written in the Bible, it can be some illogical, nonsense reason that is coming from your heart.
If you're tired of communicating with me, I dont know how to continue with a relationship. Even the deaf, mute and blind people who are in the relationship communicates.
If you dont want me to ask the WHY of things, I feel like I'm some dumb person who always accepts things as it is even without understanding its essence. Even in the simplicity of things that we do, we can always see that the question WHY i asked.
-Why dont you want to eat in that restaurant? Does the menu sucks?
-Why did you do such a thing?
-Why did you buy apples? Are those your favorite?
-Why didn't you buy yogurt last Sunday? Did you fail to go to the Supermarket?
I remember I always ask you,
-Why do you love me? I dont expect you to answer me something logical. Coz I myself dont have a logical answer. I just wanted to hear from you some sweet nothings, things that are almost seem impossible to be understood when we love a person. I'm just making lambing in short.
-How much do you love me? love cant be measured. But since figure of speech is present, parang puede na siang idefine somehow. Something like, My love for you is higher than the Mt. Everest. It's a kid's stuff. If you saw this book "How much do you love me" in the kids section, you'll see there a baby and a mother talking. Reasons can be beyond something mind can conceive and only heart can understand.
-Why didnt you text me? Why did you go home late? Why did you go there?
I ask all of these because we have already agreed about this and you're not able to fulfill it, so I ask why. There could be a valid reason aside from you forgetting it.
-Why cant we sleep together? Yes, you have already told me about this. You already told me the WHY of this. and that was couple of months ago, or even years ago. What if that has changed already? What if you're ready? I dont want to assume things at pangunahan ka sa mga reasons mo. So i ask. But then I dont know why you cant tell me right away. Why do you have to reply to my questions huggggg instead of telling me the answer right away?
We have to understand each other. Or else we're going to nowhere. We cant always say love will overcome it. Love will teach us to just accept things. Yes it will at some point. But it will not in the long run. (That's for me and I dont know about you). There will come a time that you will get tired of accepting things without understanding it. Just like now. As much as you tell me you just want to accept everything that you dont understand about me, you still get irritated by things you dont understand, right? We will not achive peace and harmony in this relationship if we live this way.
Yung pag aaya ko sa pag mamassage nakikita ko napipilitan ka. nakikita ko pagod ka na sa kakalakad natin. Nde mo lang masabi sa kin we can do it next time. But then timing is important for me. Its today that I needed a massage. Not tomorrow. Not next week. Kac that day, i feel so tired.
Sabi mo kanina siguro kulang ka sa lambing. siguro. ewan ko. As usual sabi ko na naman sa sarili ko, mas mahalin ko ang sarili ko kesa sa sayo. Simple lang naman lahat ng gusto ko. Ewan ko kung bakit parang ang complicated ng relationship natin. Sabi mo ayaw mo ko madisappoint. Why would I be disappointed if there's a valid reason for things?
I'm tired. I'm exhausted. My energy has been totally used up. I cant live this way everyday.
I'm not complicating things. I'm asking question as plainly as it is.
Pagod na ko......alam ko pagod ka na rin......
posted by alma @ 10:19 PM
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